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Thursday, March 22, 2007
cassMANdra :) 9:55 PM 」


Rarr. I was over the moon just a moment ago and now I'm not.

There's this thing that is invading in my life now. It is creeping up on me, every crevice and loop. It sucks the mere energy out of me. It is something almost everyone has. They protect it like it is their precious baby. It is so valuable to the owners that some practise this thing call protectionism policy. I thought that only happens with countries in the Asian Financial Crisis. This bloody hell of a thing. It is small and comes in many colours. It ensures that it burns a damn hole right through your pocket.The owners will constantly use it and pay so much attention to it. Right now, it is straining the relationship I have with my brother. Everytime, he is free, he almost attends to it. When he is using it, everything is oblivious to him. Really everything. Its like I am talking to a wall. A WALL. Wow. From a sister, I have degraded to an inanimate obkect. I really objected to anyone who would buy that freak into my family. This is about the first thing my brother earnestly wants. It means so much to him that he tells me to take care of it when I use it, ONLY ONCE, not to lift my hands to high when I am holding it, in case it slips out and falls onto the ground. HELLO!???@@! He is very proud that he can afford it and has used his own money to paid for it. Its more than gold to him. He shows it off to me. He wants me to get jealous. For what? Not that I want it. I already label it as a FREAK, something that is not welcomed in my house. NEVER. It is invading my privacy, my precious time with him. He is so engrossed in it that when he finishes his work, he thanks that thing for helping him when it hasn't. Deep down in my heart, I despise that damn thing. Please give me a solution.The thing is like his life now. I belong no where. Tell him its tearing my life apart, ripping me because he is my life. My one and only beloved brother whom I only want to keep to myself, who I want to pamper, who I want to love, who I want to protect is a large part of my life. The part is getting larger now but my role in his life is diminishing. The agonies of having a sister and a younger brother going through puberty. Tell me it will come to pass. Let it fade. It must...

anway, LET me introduce this FREAK to you that is subtly killing me. THE IPOD. I HATE IT, LOATHE IT, ABHOR IT, PUKE AT THE PRESENCE OF IT. I promise that I will never own an ipod in my entire life. I am really at a loss of what to do. Now because of the ipod, we have so much more quarrels. I dont understand how a 428 dollars can cause such a rift in my life and his. Perhaps he is enjoying every moment of it and I'm here complaining the shit out of myself. I really hope he doesn't reads this darn thing but i bet he never will. It's probably too long.

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