masquerade: March 2007

.QUOTES

" a kite flies the highest when it is against the wind "

.PROFILE

cassandra TAN
NINE-teen
14th FEB
female
child of God
Christalite Meth.; SYFC
Rockclimbing!
Floorball!
Outdoor Adventure!
number;11
GMethSS;Innova JC

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my GM life.
teamSAGI.
GMPB 07.
v6.

.FRIENDS

0632A.
lisa.
sheryl.
shi ming.
shi hui.
tessa.
deborah.
yuan ying.
amanda k.
sarah lois.
barry.
amanda bennett.
kenny chen.
lu feng.
jasmine.
randall.
kenneth.
ashika.
jacelyn.

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Thursday, March 22, 2007

Rarr. I was over the moon just a moment ago and now I'm not.

There's this thing that is invading in my life now. It is creeping up on me, every crevice and loop. It sucks the mere energy out of me. It is something almost everyone has. They protect it like it is their precious baby. It is so valuable to the owners that some practise this thing call protectionism policy. I thought that only happens with countries in the Asian Financial Crisis. This bloody hell of a thing. It is small and comes in many colours. It ensures that it burns a damn hole right through your pocket.The owners will constantly use it and pay so much attention to it. Right now, it is straining the relationship I have with my brother. Everytime, he is free, he almost attends to it. When he is using it, everything is oblivious to him. Really everything. Its like I am talking to a wall. A WALL. Wow. From a sister, I have degraded to an inanimate obkect. I really objected to anyone who would buy that freak into my family. This is about the first thing my brother earnestly wants. It means so much to him that he tells me to take care of it when I use it, ONLY ONCE, not to lift my hands to high when I am holding it, in case it slips out and falls onto the ground. HELLO!???@@! He is very proud that he can afford it and has used his own money to paid for it. Its more than gold to him. He shows it off to me. He wants me to get jealous. For what? Not that I want it. I already label it as a FREAK, something that is not welcomed in my house. NEVER. It is invading my privacy, my precious time with him. He is so engrossed in it that when he finishes his work, he thanks that thing for helping him when it hasn't. Deep down in my heart, I despise that damn thing. Please give me a solution.The thing is like his life now. I belong no where. Tell him its tearing my life apart, ripping me because he is my life. My one and only beloved brother whom I only want to keep to myself, who I want to pamper, who I want to love, who I want to protect is a large part of my life. The part is getting larger now but my role in his life is diminishing. The agonies of having a sister and a younger brother going through puberty. Tell me it will come to pass. Let it fade. It must...

anway, LET me introduce this FREAK to you that is subtly killing me. THE IPOD. I HATE IT, LOATHE IT, ABHOR IT, PUKE AT THE PRESENCE OF IT. I promise that I will never own an ipod in my entire life. I am really at a loss of what to do. Now because of the ipod, we have so much more quarrels. I dont understand how a 428 dollars can cause such a rift in my life and his. Perhaps he is enjoying every moment of it and I'm here complaining the shit out of myself. I really hope he doesn't reads this darn thing but i bet he never will. It's probably too long.

Labels: my agony

Yay! finished my block test. FINALLY. Thanks to Lisa, I went on a shopping spree. HAHA. Bought an orange dri-fit , light weight Sacuony shirt and a nike yellow sports bra. My brother got an fbt singlet. YAY!! Wanted to buy more but the stupid shop dont accept card. chey. TOMORROW is BOULDERACTIVE. arr. I am so tense. At least I know my route judge. HO. The next 3 days, nerf and me going for the YouthAvenue as camp fac. and then I've got j1 outdoor adventure camp from mon to wed. MAN! I really do hope that I get to go and the the emcee for the campfire night for Sagi. Hopefully.

Between you and me
Today, I saw you.
Your smile has finally returned.
Your crappy-ness is alive.
Today, you saw me.
My smile is brighter.
My eyes glean.
Today, I heard you laugh.
I saw your waving hand.
I saw your words.
It's all for me.
YES!
Its back to that world again.

Thursday, March 15, 2007

ADVENTURE RACE!!! hah. I think I must be insane. One moment, I'm crazy over rockclimbing. Now, its adventure racing. Well, sport climbing is supposed to be one of the disciplines for adventure races. My virgin race was during teen games 2006. Haha. We got third. Next is Punggol pinic race. 20km!! My team got third too. Now it is NTU X-Physique and our team came in FIRST place!! Overall, against the inter-vasities including NTU and NUS, we came in SECOND. Thank God for giving me the strength to last!

The race distance was set at a gruelling 30 km. Madness. The punggol race was bad enough. Amazingly for the Punggol race, we took 3 hours 4 mins plus. For the x=physique, an addition of 10 km, we took 3 hours and 33 mins. Listen to this. We started off at orchard youth park at 12 pm. HOT! We ran all the way to Marina South, where you eat your steam boat. Thought I was going to die. SO FAR!! I really felt like giving up as my senses told me that if the first checkpoint is this far, the other 11 checkpoints would probably be at woodlants. LOL. Cycled around the place for flying kites, 3 humongous laps. Then headed to the nearby pond to swim in the awfully murky and smelly water. By then, we were 3rd position in the JC cat and overall 7th. Crazy team mates wanted to get first. Started running again to benjamin sheares bridge to get our kayak. Kayaked out to some bridge to get a crappy clue and went all the way back into the Kallang Basin. haha!! Our team managed to catch up with the rest. Stopped at the pit stop to drink Redbull and hear the person promote about what it contained. Seriously, I had no energy to listen to what she said. Ran to the DHL hot-air balloon to do some game -- Transport water from one point to another. They commented that we did the task quite quickly. HEY. Innova JC has brains ok. Ran to Shaw Towers at Bugis. Climbed up the stairs and abseiled down the building. SO FUNKY. The facilitators there were quite disappointed when they found out that our team, from INNOVA is the second team overall to arrive. What was that supposed to mean? On our passport, we had left 5 more checkpoints. The organizer told us that it would take 3 hours for the fastest team to arrive. I wondered, if we were first for jc teams, with our timing at 3 hours already and 5 more checkpoints to go, aren't we very very SLOW?? Apparently, it was a decoy. After the abseil, we had to run back to orchard youth park and thats THE END! Thank GOD. I was quite tired and worn out but it wasn't as bad as the starting sprint. =] YAY. Thats how the race went.

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